Ravishing Love

The past few days Jesus has really been showering me in his love. There are barely words for it. Writing it all down in my journal he has been allowing my imagination to soar and I felt so inclined to share. I hope this does for you even a fragment of what it has done for me:

Jesus,

I had long forgotten the importance of my imagination. Last night imagining you, seeing your face, almost being able to feel the texture of your skin beneath my finger tips as I ran my hands along the contours of your face. The feel of your beard tickling my skin and your hair soft in the palm of my hand. Seeing the gentle intensity of your eyes warming me to the core.  

Imagining nuzzling myself into your neck and smelling the sweet rain like aroma of your skin. But not only feeling the desire to run into your arms and never let go, but the feeling of your returned affection. That your strong arms embrace me back. The desire to never let go. 

Feeling our hearts together like fire. Chest to chest. 

I NEVER want to let go.
I want to remain in your affection.
I NEVER want to let go. 

I want to remain entangled around your body, and feel your love coursing through my veins. I want to snuggle into your chest and listen to the rhythms of your heartbeat.
I literally want nothing more. 

I want you.
I want your love.
I want more and more and more.
So much I can't take it. So much that my heart may burst because it is so full. I cannot wait. I cannot wait to be with you. 

I know I am sinful 

and that I scarred you

I know that sometimes I choose myself and force up walls within my heart.
Walls where I can see you... but I can't hear you, or touch you....
I'm so sorry 

My heart longs for you so often, but it feels so trapped in this body of flesh, in the glass box I put it in to keep it safe.
Please shatter these walls. Please let your voice whisper in my ears and your eyes pierce me with love, longing, and desire like no one else is allowed, or will ever look at me the way you do. 

I give you myself as a whole. 

I no longer want to be ensnared to the bondage of wounds, pain, and the darkness of being sinned against.
I want new eyes, a new heart, and clean and pure spirit. I want a healthy body, mind and soul. 

Break the chains that make me a slave to sin.
Put my past grievances to death. 

Find me and bind me to you so that I may never know that absence of your love. May I shower you with kisses. May you be a fragrant oil in my life. Apparent for all to see. A love that never ceases. That brings me to life and is my fulfillment. Be my satisfaction.
Make me whole. See me through a vital lens. Make me your pure bride. Whisk me away and take me home. May I know no greater love than yours. 

My heart beats for you alone. 

Rid of my fears. May they be cast out by your perfect love. May I know discernment so I can trust and commit. May intimacy be made perfect, innocent, gentle and kind in you.  

May you first be my father, protecting and tender. May you first be my husband, leading and loving. May you first be my friend, comforting and trusting. May you be my brother, lover, romancer, shield, provider, and Lord. 

And may I serve you well.